to the who sent me hate: it has been a while since i have received one!!
i am so sorry that i did not read that msg ( or msgs ) immediately since my inbox
is the last thing i check when i log in. why am i answering this as a post
and not a direct answer to ur ask?? well, let us see… i would like to prevent
the drama as much as possible and it will NAG at me for days if i did not at
least answer ur ask. ur ask contained strong msgs such as: ‘You are so childish
and people tell you how great you are, but the truth is that you leave them.’ true, that
i am childish at times and is highly excitable. i do not hold back to letting the person
i talk with show, just SHOW how i like talking to them, and how this is all exciting
for me. as erin once said, i look up to everyone in this community. that is also true.
everyone here is highly respectable, and i look up to them. whether it be erin, purdey, or
nicole, or anne or blumentritt, or ANYONE. i look up to them. i like them, and i am
astonished by how they write. i need some mentoring bc the way i write is still crude
and does not capture my character completely like how they write. i do not leave them.
at least, i think i do not?? i just feel detached from everyone… talking to anyone takes
a lot of energy and it leaves me feeling down or idek just…. hollow. maybe bc it is the
fact that i cannot rly see them irl or just be with them irl HURTS me a lot.
u also wrote, ‘Change the way you fucking write. It’s annoying.’ r u talking about ic
or ooc?? bc the way i write in ooc is COMPLETELY annoying just bc i am rly rly
lazy at writing complete words and tend to just use the shortcut. but if ur talking about
my writing in ic, it is written in my rules that i am king of the purple prose. i tend to do
it quite a lot and the use of archaic words is bc my character is an archaic being.
and next, u wrote, ‘For a girl, you put a lot of drama. What the fuck?’ the amount of
swears u put in each ask is highly disturbing and i suggest u see a psychoanalyst to
check if something is wrong with u. i know that i write a lot of ooc and i write how i
feel so idek… i feel like sharing how i feel?? is that so wrong?? and… and i am… i
am not a girl. i… I AM NOT.
the last being, ‘You keep dropping threads or ignoring me, so I’m not sure I
want to rp with you anymore.’ again, it is in my rules. i am selective and private.
and i have a lot in my drafts. i keep two blogs, meaning the work has been doubled.
i do not wish to be rude or anything but it consumes energy… roleplaying, and i am
selective, and just when the muse hits i just…. how do u explain this?? i am so sorry.
i am v v v sorry for this.
p.s
please just unfollow me.